So, To Continue These Posts About My Love Life..

I'm actually enjoying being single now.

It's ridiculously wonderful to know I can hang out with whoever I want, or cuddle with people, or just THINK as an individual. I never realized how many of my opinions had been essentially formed by someone else, and it's nice to start making up my own mind about things.

Though, I still do miss having a someone. When I see couples at school or out and about, it still kinda hurts. Because I used to have that, and now it's gone. But I guess I know that it's possible for me to have that in the first place, which helps me believe it'll happen again. Just not now.

Quite honestly, I neeeed space right now. I don't wanna deal with another relationship for a while. Being single in high school is an entirely new experience for me, and it's not altogether unpleasant. I feel like I only hafta worry about me, and not constantly thinking about anyone else.

So. I need topics besides coming to terms with my singleness.

OH. Right.

My first two grad parties ever were successes! Everyone looked wonderful in their sundresses, it was so nice seeing everyone all dressed up. And I saw so many peoples, and they said they liked me and I said I liked them and friendships were reaffirmed and it was loverly. The only downside was that it reminded me that all of these fantastic people won't be here next year, and I'll be awfully lonely without them. For the most part, I enjoy people from the senior class much more than the majority of my class (besides all my terrific friends, of course). And considering some of them are heading off to Nowhere, Ohio and the like, I have no idea when I'll see them next once they graduate.

Growing up is difficult.

But I must head off to bed now. Tomorrow is practice for Blue Man Group next Friday (I'm painting myself blue and everything, guys, please come out to Battle of the Bands so it's not all for naught!) and sleep is necessary.

Knighty knight, y'all,

Suzi

YOU'RE IN THE FRIEND ZONE, AND FOR A REASON.

IT'S BECAUSE I DON'T HAVE FEELINGS FOR YOU THAT WAY.

I said yes to going to prom with you AS A FRIEND. I lend you my books AS A FRIEND. You can't take a now three year friendship and do this to it. You know I just got out of my first relationship, that lasted for almost three years, and now you're doing this?

JUST. I MEAN. BOYS.

In other news, I maybe possibly hopefully will not paint myself blue and play the drumbone at the upcoming Battle of the Bands. So there's a reason to come out and see it. Just warning you: I have no idea what I'll look like in a bald cap.

I've also decided (or kinda sorta have thought about) joining Speech and Debate next year. I'd wanna perform slam poetry. Not write it, necessarily, I don't have that kind of writing ability. But the whole performing of them just seems so wonderful. I just need some to perform. Any suggestions? (Psh, I act like people read this thing.)

Off To Watch Poets On Youtube,

Suzi